alicia_mariex3

I finally have a chance to sit down and update this thing!
I never realized how hectic the holidays could be with a new baby, and EVERYONE on the face of the planet wanting to see him. But all in all my holidays were just about PERFECT =D I can't say I got a shit load of gifts or anything, but Seth did and that makes me happier than anything. My apartment looked like a tornado went through it up until just a couple of days ago.

My little brother ended up staying with us for close to a week, needless to say he was kind of a douche bag the whole time. Not to me, but my son and Kevin- which pissed me off. I can't say he was rude to me once though, I guess its because now that we are older? He will be moving out to Vegas on TUESDAY since all of the shit happened with him getting kicked out of my moms and whatever. I am a little down about it because he will be so far away. He is now saying he is going to kill himself, yadda yadda if he has to be away from his girlfriend. I just gave him the blunt truth, 'you shouldn't have fucked up so many times and you shouldn't have snuck out the window.' My mom was cracking and wanting to let him come back home and I told him this, I told him DO NOT fuck up this week. What does he do? Tells kevin and I my mom was going to let his girlfriend pick him up from our house a few nights early. Me being stupid didn't check with my mom first and let him go. Well that put her over the top again, and now hes out to Vegas in two days. Its official my brother is a DUMBASS! But I did get a free i-pod out of the whole thing which was pretty sweet.

Seth is getting bigger and bigger by the day! I find myself looking back on his baby pictures and already missing how small he used to be. He is so smart! He is going to be too smart for his own good! Since the day he has been out of the womb he has been so alert and curious. Most newborns sleep all day and your lucky if you get to see their eyes open for a month...NOT my baby! lol. For about the past week he has been getting up on his hands and knees and rocking back and forth, and then scooctching himself up with his toes. Im excited, hes going to be crawling soon! He has also started eating his cereal 2-3 times a day now and is progressing really well with it! He will be starting on his veggies within the month =D

Last night we went up to see my mom and mark at my Papa Toms. Because my papa tom is in the hospital right now with pneumonia, which is pretty scary because he is on oxygen 24/7 =( so I am praying for him. Anyways it was a nice time...Kevin and I played operation with my little brother like 10,000 times lol. And we ended up getting pretty drunk with my mom and mark. fun fun.
so I guess thats all for now?

July 31, 2008...the HAPPIEST day in my ENTIRE life. The day my son, Seth Charles James Coleman. I never knew while I was pregnant with him that I could love somebody that I had never met so much. And then when he was finally here...I knew that if I were to EVER feel how much I love my little boy, it would literally kill me. Words can not describe my undevotional love for him. I still remeber the day he was born like it was yesteday- how warm he felt when they put him in my arms for the first time...and just how right it felt. I remeber his smell, the small that is all so farmiliar to me now today. But most of all I remeber how complete I finally felt. He is what I had been waiting for in my life, he is what saved me from the life I was about to lead. He is EVERYTHING to me. He is only 4 1/2 months old now, and I can not even remeber life before him, it is like he was always meant to be here.

If I didn't have Kevin and Seth in my life, I think I would really be nothing. I have a reason to get out of bed every morning, and I am always happy when I get out of bed in the mornig...for once in my life! Nothing can describe the feeling I get when I climb out of bed to get Seth out of his crib and there he is smiling his huge adorable toothless smile up at his MOMMY. I could talk about him for hours and hours but I am sure that would bore the crap out of people haha.

Now for the recent news on little man!! He has just gotten over a pretty bad cold, we had several sleepless nights an days, he could not breath and eat at the same time ( I said I loved being a mommy, but I never said it was all peachy keen! haha)) every time he coughed he would wake himself up. I was so afraid! When he was sleeping I would creep into his room just to make sure he was still breathing at least every 10 minutes! I suppose that is what may have waken him up at times =-0! Now that he is better, he is getting up on his hands and knees getting ready to crawl. His personality is growing more and more by the day...and boy I can already see he is going to be the curious type who wants to get into everything...and know everything that is going on. He is so alert and always watching things and learning. He is going to be one hell of a smart kid, probably smarter than mommy and daddy. I know one thing for sure though...we are going to have our hands full!!!!

well I guess I will write more in a day or so =]]]

So my last entries were from early fall of 2007, and I guess you can say I have done a COMPLETE 180 since that time.

I thought life was so good, hell, life was a party. All I did was drink and do drugs, I thought nothing would ever change. I had the best of friends and people I could get high with at any time of night I wanted. Well when you live that life things go so fast- and they dissapear even faster. I thought things would be how they were forever and my friends would always have my back. Well that wasn't the case. I got pregnant in late October of 2007, and after I found out the news I guess you can say I grew up real fast. I now had human being inside me that I had to protect more than I protected anything in my entire life. Well after the news my friends were slowly fading away, people stopped coming around, and I eventually got less and less phone calls. I was even left in the dark with everything that was going on in my 'best friends' life. I eventually confronted my friend Mary about her problem with pills that I was begining to hear from certain people. Well that ended up turning into a huge blowout of her saying I don't respect her.... well we have not talked since and it has been a whole year now. Everyone told me that I tought I was better than all of them because I was pregnant. Some friends if they really expected me to continue what I was doing when I was carrying my child. And some friends for not talking to me anymore because of that. I do miss them sometimes. I mostly miss Mary, we had been friends for SEVEN years, and our friendship went down the tubes over pills, fucking PILLS. This is why I hate drugs, and I hate even more what they do to people. People who once loved you, they turn into different people, and it kills who they once were. I have so much built up anger from these people for doing what they did to me. But I am GLAD I have them out of my life, I am GLAD my life is so much more healthy. I have the friends that I need now- the friends that stuck by my side through my whole pregnancy, and the new friends that I am still getting to know and get closer with.




so that is for that, this journal will for the most part be about my son, and complaints in life and I am just fine with that!

So, today sucked to say the least....

my little brother is homeless. my mom will not be letting him back into her home. I understand her side COMPLETLY, but he is still my baby brother- and I can't help but worry... I have cried half the day.

I have offered him to stay at my apartment for a week and a half ONLY, I wish I could do more but I just can't. Kevin and I have rent, bills and a four month old baby...we just absolutley cannot do it.  but at the same time I am afraid to let him crash here becaue he has his head shoved so far up his ass right now...

I don't know anymore.


I just wish I could do more....
I feel like  a worthless sister...

Ahh. Good ol' live journal.
I am sure I should do the obligatory life update since I havn't been on this thing in ages, but i have other things on my mind- so that will come later...maybe tonight...maybe tomorrow.

But onto everything that is floating around in my brain.

My little brother Devon is on my mind CONSTATNLY now. He is headed down such a horrible path at such a young age. I know, I know..I wasn't doing the greatest things and I was that age once, and that I do not forget. But he is getting into so much more than I would have ever imagined at that age...or at any age for that matter. I still remeber it like yesteray when we were kids and fighting over the dumbest shit on the planet (i.e. what channel to watch on tv, who would use the phone next ect. ect.) I absolutley HATE his current girlfriend. She is so wrong for him, and yes that seems like a 'normal big sister' thing to say. Although it is so true, and I am sure many who have known him through the years would agree. First off,  he is SIXTEEN years old, and this girl is fucking TWENTY. What in the hell is a twenty year old in college doing with a sixteen year old junior in high school? That is my first indication that this girl is a little off. Next, I went to school with this girl- I did not know here personally but the reputaion she held was just wonderful if I do say so myself. The only thing she had made of herself in high school was being called a slut and a drug addict. Call me overprotective, but somtimes I wish I could just lash out and wail her right in the face! And of course my brother being sixteen with his first serious girlfriend that I might add he lost his virginity too is going to do anything and everything she does and asks. So, at sixteen years old he is already dropping acid I know for a fact, and god knows what else. I am so scared for him, drugs are one of my biggest fears. I have lost so many people to them from death and just plain old people caring mor about their high than our friendship. I DO NOT want to be staring down at my brothers grave in a couple of years, and that is waht I am most fearful of. Secondly I am just plain fearful of him getting hurt by ths girl and turning to drugs to cope. Worst of all he has completly shut everyone out.....ughh, I just don't know what to think anymore. I don't ant to sound like hypocrite because anyone who knows me knows what a little stoner, drunk and very occasionl e-tard I was, but I also know where all this stuff takes you. I have watched it destoy so many people and things I loved so dearly.

Now after all of this I recieve a call from my mom. After all of this he treats my mother like absolute SHIT! Will not and does not listen to a damn thing she says. She tells him e home by 9pm, he makes it midnight...on a school night. In the past six months he has been picked up for shop lifting twice. So anyways I guess last night he did not come home until three hours past curfew, and had recently got suspended for skipping classes and Saturday schools. Today he wakes up late again for school, and gets pissed at my mom because she does not have a vehicle to drive him to school. So he sneaks out of his window, more than likely with his girlfriend...my first question being if he can sneak out with his girlfriend why didn't he have HER bring him to school? Anyhow my mom is totally fed up and told him he does not live there anymore, make plans to live with our dad in Vegas... Noone, not even my dad has heard from him since.

To wrap it up...I just don't know what to think anymore. I have talked to him until I am blue in the face and he won't listen to a damn word I say. I am just so concered, hes my only full blooded brother, not that my half siblings are any less important. I just think him and I have a little more special bond, I would do ANYTHING for him at ANY time. I just miss my brother and how he used to be before this girl came into the picture...

 I guess its time for updation, seeming as I can't sleep, I'm hopped up on adderall and I guess I just feel like typing.

Well, my boy has been home for almost a week now, it will be a week on Saturday, it has been the most stressful thing I have dealt with. He got an honorable discharge- meaning...HE CAN GO BACK IN SIX MONTHS. If he decides thats what he wants to do. His parents are deciding he is nothing since he did not make the marines his first time around, throwing him on the streets and not letting him come home. It has been one hell of a week, but for most of it we have managed to get him a few places to stay, shower, food and what not. Thanks to my amazing friends who have been helping SO fricken much ((Mary, Stacie, Greg, Kevins brother,Al, Joey, Tonya, Boo, Shauna, Tamika, Lisa, James, you guys have done so much and will never know how much I appreciate it)). So hes been on the streets about a week, things have gotten rocky- its so hard, but we are making it.  but for the GREAT NEWS... By October 23 my grandma will let us move into her house, and pay only the utilites while she is away in Nevada for 6 months. The only thing we have to do in order to go there is get a car and get me transferd to the mcdonalds up there, so at least I have a job while he looks, and both things are set in motion already =]  So im very excited for this move, the only thing that will suck is leaving my friends and my lil bro dev.


Joeys is slowly but surely becoming my second home again, I have been having a GREAT month. Im working my ass off, making money and still having fun. Quite a few shitty things have gone down the past couple of weeks- but we are all making it through everything.

OH! Tonight, while I was walking home from the park at around 2am, this fucking van full of guys pulls onto my street and parks at the first house, and the dude in the passenger seat was knocking on his window trying to get my attention, I pretended not to notice cuz I was already freaking out... so the guy rolls down his window and says "Whats a pretty girl like you doing walking around all by yourself at this hour, are you okay?" I said "I'm fine" so he asked me if I lived right down the street, I told him yea, im fine. Hes trying to offer me a ride, and I just start walking away, then they open the fucking door and all these guys start getting out. I fucking booked it...I ran to a house to pretend it was mine and hid in their fricken bushes. I think my heart almost stopped.


uh yea, well thats about it. I have to get to bed, kevins interview for a job is tomorrow!

I love this feeling, of KNOWING my life is going to work out.

I have found my one and only, I love the feeling I get when Im in his arms, or looking into his eyes. I have never talked about a future with anyone before him. We have it all planned =] I just have to talk him into marrying me in his marines uniform. hehehe.

Wherever he is going to be, I am following <3

my boy isnt leaving until Septemeber now, he sprained his ankle.
so alicia= very happy

Yeah, blow me a shotgun
B-b-blow me a shotgun
B-b-blow me a shotgun
It gives me (satisfaction)

[Verse 1: Ludacris]
Can you handle it
808 bang in the back with the woofer like boom boom boom boom
With my foot on the pedal and my hand on my strap
Got the engine like vroom vroom vroom vroom
What's up, you ain't never heard a nigga rap like-like this before
I got an addictive flow that'll give you (satisfaction)
I'ma make you satisfied, even if it kills me
Even if it takes the slower minds, a little bit of time to feel me
Recollect the 15 million I sold, or the 30 times I went gold
And if you take 2 puffs of this dro, it'll give you (satisfaction)
I've sold the most and noone's close, but I'm not meaning to brag
It's different strokes for different folks, like Angelina and Brad
Some keep the heat in the stash, put 30 keys in their Jag
And if cops ain't peepin your tag then you're gonna feel some (satisfaction)
Pumpin' out albums like Reverend Run is pumpin out children, here's another one
So catch me on more 24's than Kiefer Sutherland
I'm bound to be the greatest, I'm determined to win
Until then I can't get no (satisfaction)

[Chorus]

[Verse 2: Smoke]
I'm the one that went to the gunfight with a knife, and won
Left with his pistol and left him dead, the guy he tried to run
Just because my verse 2nd don't mean I am not the one
When I'm done I'm guaranteed to give you (satisfaction)
I might not be the best in the world, but the best the world ever seen
I'm all been in Georgia's daughter Conde ding-a-ling king
And when I'm digging deep in the spleen, I'ma make the cream and she scream
Baby get me hard like a Snickers bar I give her (satisfaction)
Yessir there ain't not other way so motherfuck what you say
Y'all had this spot, we took you off the top like a toupee
Them coke's been kick and pushed in this fiasco like Lupe
Back that ass up like Juve, cause the south we givin them (satisfaction)
Ever since I signed with Luda and them, my chances of losing are slim
Y'all talk that smack but copycat and do a movie like him
Yessir my mob got that goodie, as if my group had a kid
We gonna continue to give them a double dose of (satisfaction)

[Chorus]

[Verse 3: Shawn Jay]
Yea Fleetwood drop the bomb, when I rhyme it's TNT
That's why my money long as the line at the DMV
When they askin who was that that was snappin I'm that answer dude
Like Snickers bring no nuts no (satisfaction)
I hustle and flow, I done been by my cheese since I was knee high
Weed what you need, hit me I'ma drop off peaches like I'm T.I.
Earvin Johnson gimme that rock and magic cap of Shawn Jay
Dope sold money for (satisfaction)
I been the nigga they can't fuck with, hot but the flow cold
Flip rocks by the boatload O.G. no see see me get tipped off getcha no dough
Zip-loc full of dro tow big glocks on the hip cocked try to play the big shots
Get popped with the four four
Don't be the reason they mopped in the floor for payin me, that (satisfaction)
Fool for a dollar let me get that pop, man I need this cream
Where my cake give me my candles, I got sweet sixteen
Now the kid with the cocaine flow got DTP on his necklace
Now Luda tell them what you think about your invest (satisfacton)

[Chorus - 2X]

Manson + Slayer = FUCKING AMAZING.
the only thing that disapointed me was mansons playlist, but he was still fucking amazing live.


FUCKING SLAYER \m/

As stupid as it sounds- Im OOZING with happiness.
Im just not trying to think about him leaving right now =[

I...Don't wanna know your name
But I...Do want your private number baby

All I know is that to me
You look like you're lots of fun
Open up your lovin' arms
I want some, want some

I set my sights on you (And no one else will do)
And I, I, I, I...got to have my way now baby

All I know is that to me
You look like you're lots of fun
Open up your loving arms
Watch out here I come

You spin me right round, baby right round
Like a record, baby right round round round
You spin me right round, baby right round
Like a record, baby right round round round

I...don't wanna be your friend now baby
But I...wanna move it just a little bit closer

All I know is that to me
You look like you're lots of fun
Open up your loving arms
Watch out here I come

You spin me right round, baby right round
Like a record, baby right round round round
You spin me right round, baby right round
Like a record, baby right round round round

All I know is that to me
You look like you're lots of fun
Open up your loving arms
Watch out here I come

You spin me right round, baby right round
Like a record, baby right round round round
You spin me right round, baby right round
Like a record, baby right round round round 

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Im falling fast....and I like it =D

Had the stoner extravaganza weekend, if thats what you want to call it, hah.
Hung out with my Maryweather all weekend, it was nice.
Saw Gregoreo and Jason on Friday, and got paranoid because the assholes were burning plastic and I thought it was going to smell like crack in my garage, so I was running around locking all the doors. funny shtuff.

Mary and I finally succeded in having my mom take us to get food, at like 3am, it was pretty fun- we all got milkshakes and had a jolly ol' time. lol.

Saw my boy today =D He makes me very happy, I see this one actually going somewhere, which makes me even happier. We basically just cuddled and do things that couples do all day, while watching movies. KEVIN IS JELOUS OF MY LOVE FOR JOHNNY DEPP =-p. 
yes, yes, but my weekend was purdy good.

im tired.
peace out.

So, that whole bittersweet thing?
Kinda feel like ranting on it now...

I feel like Im not welcome into my best friends house, I feel like Im being shut out on everything, and almost like its on purpose. Four days go by and still noone invites me to do ANYTHING. The only people I have to talk to right now are Mary, Kevin, Stacie and Jason. Which Im happy about. Im starting to get depressed and that scares me. I have an empty feeling knowing Im not welcome into my second home, and almost as if someone is taking my place. Maybe I will consider going out to California. Who knows. 

My best friend thinks I hate her. She couldnt be far more from the truth. I dont know whats wrong with me, I guess Im just very offended and its going to take a while for me to look at her like I used to. I know I made a bad desicion, but it was my desicion, all on my own. I dont really regret it, I regret hurting one of my good friends. But I dont want to be judged on my desicions. I dont want people to think I use them or shit on them, that thought has never gone through my head...not ONCE, and if my 'friends' can say that about me, then maybe I should reconsider them. I cant do that though, I love them so fucking much. I wanted to cry tears of joy when Greg came over and smoked with me, I miss everyone so much. Im sure Kevin is sick of hearing how sad I am about it..I miss them I miss them I miss them. Thats all I can say. Just because I dont have money, or a car, or anything else, doesnt mean im not appreciative. Im so appreciative, giving me rides or whatever it is you guys do is some of the nicest things people have done for me. My own parents done even do that shit. So when I say I love you more than my family, I mean it. Its funny that you call me crying though, but everyone else is telling me how you sit there saying how happy you are now. That makes me feel really good. Im sure none of this is making sense, its not making sense in my head either.

My boy is leaving really soon for the marines, and its already breaking my heart. If I dont see him, I dont know what Im going to do- he makes me VERY happy, happier than I have been in a long time. I was supposed to stay the night at his house and my mom was going to take me there, but I wouldnt have had a ride home tomorrow. Just my luck huh? Id say so. I know the 19th is for sure, but I have to see him before that. Im falling hard and fast, but I like it. Noone thinks hes good for me, they havent heard him talk to me. Hes been sober right along with me and staying on the phone with me =] he makes me happy. Im going to learn the fucking bus or taxi system if I have to. I have rides there from my mommy! Just the rides back im missing lol. AND THERES A DAMN POOL THERE! WOOT!


Despite all of this, being sober for almost a week has been feeling pretty damn good, I dont have that cloud over my head all day, I can make it all through work without turning into a cranky bitch, Im easier to talk to, and Im expressing my feelings better, at least to the people I have been talking to.
Thats basically all thats bugging me. yea.

And some things are really shitty...

but im not going to go into any details here.
nor do I feel like it.

some things are bittersweet..

Um, updation I guess.

Not much to say.
I gots myself a boyfriend, and I like him alot.
Hes going into the marines, and things are going very well so far =D
We have a special day planned on the 19th and some double dates with Mary and Jason as soon as he gets his rental car!!! weehoo.

I love my bestie Mary Lynn Cazara with all of my <3
...and Stacie too. I think if it wasnt for mine and Stacies special talks- I would have gone nuts by now.

I havent drank ANYTHING in about 4 days now, and Im feeling absolutley GREAT. I dont plan on drinking much anymore, I will Saturday though since Spork is in town. WOOT.

Im enrolled into macomb and taking my placement test and registering for my classes tomorrow. I think I will have an easy time with school and work this year since my boy will be gone, even though I dont want him to be gone. At least we can write and talk on the phone. Then once he gets settlled into his base we will go from there.

Im going out with my lovely Samantha soon, we have lots to talk about and catch up on, and we have so much more in common now! So I see us getting a little closer.

My Madre is pregnant again, at first I wasnt too thrilled about it, okay im still not. But I get to move into the basement which is pretty suuuweet if I do say so myself. I have taken her out to lunch a couple of times in the past week or so, and we have just talked and talked. Its been really nice. As for my Dad, hes upset with me right now since he found out about all of the partying I do.

I want to clean up my act so I can not mess around and do well in school, HOWEVER, I WONT STOP BEING MY STONER LITTLE SELF. I <3 my weed too much x98739387363736736373. wow.

So basically, life is pretty damn good.

IM GOING ON STRIKE:



D'SHAUN LORENZO TERRELL CANNOT MOVE ='-[

R.I.P Peggy Sue Irwin
August 13, 1958- July 6, 2007
You will never leave my memories or my heart, I can promise you that.


The showing was on Sunday and Monday, and the funeral was yesterday. Im sorry to say that things were nothing but fucked up the entire time. Apparently my Aunts husband has always had some sort of 'hatred' for our family, and for what? For loving them? Being there when they needed us? Actually being a fucking family? Who was there on all the holidays, birthdays or even just the random bbqs we would have to all hang out? US. My Aunts father 'Calvin' had not been in her life for her ENTIRE life, moved on and had more kids with some other woman and moved out of state, every fucking time my Aunt would try and contact him and her siblings, they would tell her they want nothing to do with her. So 2 weeks before she passes, they decide THEN that they want to be in her life, when shes on her fucking deathbed- who gets asked to be a pall bearer, noone in our family except Uncle Chris, oh and her 'brother' that she knew for 2 fucking weeks. My Uncle Jason AND my Uncle Jeff should have been the fucking pall bearers, thats BULLSHIT. My Uncle also decided to take her fucking wedding ring and engagement rings off before they closed the casket, she should have been buried with it....she loved that man with all of her heart, I couldnt tell you why, but she did. And that is all that matters. I know if my Aunt could see what was going on, and Im sure she can, she would be sick. Our family, EVERYONE else but OUR family wasnt mentioned in the eulogy. Its nice to know someone can hate us that much.

...and its funny because I was the ONLY person from our family that he even talked to or acted like a human being, and I just didnt get it. He told me how I was his and Aunt Peggys favorite neice, and they were so excited that I was going to med school, and that as soon as I get my license I need to come visit blah, blah, blah. I found this quite odd, that ME of all people was the only one getting respect from him- but my mom told me it was because they always had a 'soft spot' for me.

So anyways, after the luncheon after the funeral, we drove back to the funeral home to bring Uncle Jeff to his car, and noone was there yet- so my mom and uncle jeff went in to take some of the flowers, since we didnt even get a fucking PETAL of one at the funeral. It was wrong that they were just going in to take them without asking, but it was even more wrong that they discluded our family from everything- Aunt Peggys family. Nothing should have mattered right now, other than what Aunt Peggy would have wanted. So my cousin comes back while my mom is inside, and goes to walk in while they are walking out with the flowers. She says to my mother "What the hell do you think your doing TAMI (not Aunt Tami, TAMI) and she rips everything out of her hands- and tells her that everything is for THEIR family, and tells her and my Uncle to fucking fuck off. I thought she was different, she WAS one of my favorite cousins, me and her used to do everything together when I was little. Who would have knew she was such a nasty fucking CUNT.

My cousin Brian (only one I will call FAMILY anymore) called my mom, and told her Shannon switched the story around to my Uncle and told him my mom was the one who told her to fuck off and shit. BULLSHIT. And apparently she has been making lists ever since Aunt Peggy became non-responsive about what shit of her moms that she wants, and bragging to Brian about how shes going to get so much, let alone telling Brian that he is a worthless peice of shit, and that as soon as their mom died she was never going to speak to him again. First off who the fuck thinks about that when their MOTHER is on her deathbed, thats just fucking SICK. Its really blowing my mind how all of this shit is coming together....that I once looked up to these people, I once loved these people because they WERE My family. Im upset about it too because they were my family, and im almost ashamed to say my family has turned out to be this way.

Shannon is nothing but a little spoiled filthy rotten nasty little cunt bitch- she didnt give two shits about her mother, she acted as if the funeral was a fucking party- ALL SMILES, weird? I think... Fuck her. She better HOPE TO GOD I never see her face again, or its getting pounded in, because NOONE will talk to my mother the way she did and fucking get away with it. Thats my mom, thats crossing a line. Unlike her my sole life purpose isnt to plan out what I will get of hers before she passes. Talk about fucking selfish.

.....I guess Im done ranting about this, im just sick to my stomach..
On a lighter note, Jasons Grad Party is tonight at Joeys house, and Im looking forward to getting SHITFACED, I fucking need it...no joke. I just wish Crystal would call her ass in and go! Cuz we havent partied in forever =[ And I think that if any of those stupid whores show up there tonight- there will be a fight, cuz im not fucking around anymore. I will knock a bitch out =D.

I <3 my family, more than words could EVER express.

I havent been in the mood to update...
not much to say anyways...

except that I randomly found half a joint hiding in my room today, that was pretty sweet.
And I smoked some weird shit called 'salvia'. woot

Just updating to let you all (well crystal lol) that I havent forgotten about this thing again!

So, I think it is time for me to get a new journal icon, so where the hell do I get them from? I cant even remeber for the life of me! Please help =] 

Um, so what to say. I have about a whole week and a half of partying that I cant remeber. Its been the time of my life though. Joeys and Terrells is now our second home I think it is safe to say lol. I WISH CRYSTAL COULD COME AND PARTY WITH US SOON AND THEN EVERYTHING WOULD BE COMPLETE, until then it wont be.

So I have a SHITLOAD of sweet ass pictures to get up here and on myspace, just need to get the internet on my laptop and they will be here for your veiwing pleasure ;-)
I still like this boy, but it has been said he does not like me back, so I guess its off to the field again. DANG.

Ill update more later fuckers.
<3